Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Went to watch Bangkok Dangerous with HBB.. Had to have la 4 loud-mouth Indian boys sitting in front of us. Guess they couldn't get seats for the Tamil movie Aegan, a day after Deepavali :p Being typical Indians, they couldn't keep their mouth shut with their giggles and stuff.. So we just shifted to the right as there were available seats next to us. Still could hear their annoying voices but it was bearable.. As usual, they laughed and giggled during scenes like girls with skimpy clothings. Whats more annoying than that, they giggled during a scene where the mute lady tries to tell her name to Nicholas Cage using her hands, which I touch was quite heart-warming.. Indians.. Typical..

By the way, I give Bangkok Dangerous a thumbs down.. Bad script and storyline.. Even Nicholas Cage's good looks couldn't save this one :)

Happy Deepavali ya'all !!

Friday, October 24, 2008


I need a smack to the head I tell you..

Open your heart when someone comes knocking
Let it breathe fresh and clean air
Let it heal clogged pathways and messed up minds
Let it not refill the same cracked space again
But occupy a new compartment in your heart
For the past cannot be changed
But the future does not need to be built on the past
But a new space
In my heart

Anyone who reads this post can smack me once on the head...

Sunday, October 19, 2008


"Reputation is hard to build, but easy to loose" - rubinho

Saturday, October 18, 2008

After nearly 3 months..

Time surely flies. It's going to be 3 months since I first started my job. All is well, nothing challenging but watching my students moving on to their respective schools after passing their exams give a certain joy and happiness.

One of my former student saw me in my office today and said I was the best physics lecturer ever. Okay, okay.. maybe that's a tad too far.. I'm sure there are better lecturers here. Nevertheless I am happy because it showed I did a decent job with the students I was teaching and not messed their brains up.

Career wise I'm still not sure where does it lie. I'm waiting to see what opportunities presents itself, be it further studies or another job.

Friday, October 17, 2008


There's only one chance for salvation

There's only one chance for hope

There's only one chance for retribution

Because at any one time you make a mistake

You can loose everything

Thursday, October 16, 2008

The world isn't the way it was supposed to be

What has the world come to?

Crime is now a daily activity, no matter if it is reported or not..

October 14 : Someone close to me got mugged at knife point while being in a parked car
October 15 : My co-worker's home got robbed in, cash and jewelries stolen
October 16 : I'm sure  somewhere theres a crime going on now..

We dont have a real life supermans, batman or spiderman to fight crime.. Because we know the police are worth shit.. You might as well rename them into "crime scene investigators", "traffic controllers", "road tax inspectors", "ISA inforcers", or "anti-rally personnel".

It doesn't look like a world I want my children to grow up in. When a crime happens to you, there is a big possibility you might not be able to do anything at all because someone else might get hurt due to your actions. Its a real feeling of helpless-ness. My greatest fear is loosing someone close to me right infront of my eyes and theres nothing I can do about it..

The world is in need of change. For it is loosing its morality and sanity. But how? We can't even handle the politics and environment of our own countries. Homo sapiens are on a downhill trend. 

A downhill trend to extinction.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Fear, Anger, or Numbness

I don' feel the fear I should be feeling..

I don't feel the anger I should be feeling..

I just feel numb..

Life's Lessons

October 14, 2008, 10.50pm

I thank for no one was hurt
I thank that it was only money and not blood

I thank for this to happen when I'm at this age
When I'm old enough to think and learn from it
And young enough to avoid the same mistake again in the future

Nothing ever prepares you for the first time
But the first time prepares you for all time

*There are no coincidences, only the illusion of coincidence. - V (from V for Vendetta)

Monday, October 13, 2008

Save the cheerleader, Save the world (title not related to content)

I want to give her mine..

So she can multiply it by a factor of a thousand and return it back to the world..

What defines a human?

What defines a human? 

Is it his creativity and intelligence? 
Is it his feats or accomplishment? 
Is it the care he shows for his fellow beings? 
Is it finding a soulmate and continuing the circle of life? 
Or is it being able to feel?

Today the question of being human will hang over my head..

For I was asked by someone I hurt badly.. Am I still even human..

I have been asking myself that question for months now actually.. 

What do you do when people's tears and cries can't penetrate the thick skin of your heart?
What do you do when people's heartbreak and the loss of someone can't leave a scare on your face?

Why can't I feel the pain..

Its there.. 

Hidden in my heart.. 

But I can't feel it anymore..

Am I even human anymore..

Because humans feel..



And so it begins...

Saturday, October 11, 2008



That was the time i punched in for work today..

I was late..

I woke up at 0755, bath and brushed my teeth in 3 minutes, clothes in half a minute, and off!

0814 can be considered early since it takes 12 minutes to drive to work..

Coincidentally, its the first time I'm changing my phone alarm tune from Flow Rida's Low to a Salsa Merengue Mix. That must have been the reason.. Or maybe another factor played a part.. :p

Carried a cat out of the office when I did reach.. And a work-less Saturday ensues..

Friday, October 10, 2008


Its weird when you suddenly miss someone close to you even more when you know you wont be in contact with the person for a certain amount of time. Is it the fear of losing? Is it not being able to connect with the person? Is it insecurities? Or is it nothing at all.. When you hear the person's voice for the last time, the only feeling you have is the feeling of wanting to hear that voice again as soon as possible just to make sure everything is okay. The time was 2245. The day was October 10, 2008. Everything will be okay.

Anyways, that was just my thoughts for the moment. I leave you with Rudyard Kipling's 'If'.. A poem i enjoyed reading in English literature in my schooling days.


If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!